A House of My Own

Not a flat. Not an apartment in back. Not a man’s house. Not a daddy’s . A house all my own. With my porch and my pillow, my pretty purple petunias. My books and my stories. My two shoes waiting beside the bed.

Nobody to shake a stick at. Nobody’s garbage to pick up after.

  Only a house quiet as snow, a space for myself to go, clean as paper before the poem.

Alone one company

 Life is full of surprises , like who can say that i can skip birthday of my special one , mine baby niece. I love her so much , always prefer to get some time for her, even if i totally busy. This year on sixth December she is turning five and im not attending  birthday party and even its not like that i am busy or i have to complete some specific urgent task. I staying at my home,  It just i prefer to stay at home.  

    I love her so much that on last of her four birthdays i planned special things from my end. even if i was lagging at time or running out at money. And just like other years i planned for this year too but i couldn’t make it possible. As earlier years I already purchase gift for her , which she already collected . we are so connected that as soon as she come to know that i had bought something for her, the very same day she came at my place took all those gift. Actually i love her this attitude , that obvious she can rule my heart, after all she is the only one.

     But with  this all affection and  special love bond, im not attending her birthday party, may be she miss me or may be she will not. How its possible , because she would be busy in dancing, eating , enjoying and specially opening her all gift boxes , and specially she  just turn five today , so definitely she cant be able to realize that im not present there. 

    But with this passing time you should get habitual that you will not be always important in someone life, it would be for very short time. Because with the time everyone is changing and there preferences too. And its definitely not for others , im also changing . I still cant even realize , that today i take this decision to satay at home. where i have full opportunity to go out with mom and dad . So if I was with mom , now i would be  eating cake of birthday party or if i opted to go out with dad than i would be enjoying  delicious wedding dinner. But i denied both and opted my own company , The Alone one company .  

   But i think this option is best, because yes im making regret for cake and wedding sweet but at least for coming day i will continue with fresh mind with zero stress . Because last day i attended wedding event too, but neither i enjoyed that environment not the food, specially I had cold and fever last night because of these chilled winter.

   I am happy and that’s always matter to me.