Patterns

memories follow such old patterns. I don’t remember what i had for dinner last night, but i remember sitting in my first- grade classroom, listening to my grey-haired teacher talk about flames.

“be careful”, she said, ” they look pretty when they flicker but they can easily become a fire.’

years have passed since then, but it’s a lesson that has never left me. it comes back in the form of a perfectly timed raindrop that rolls lazily down my spine just seconds before the sound of thunder.

years have passed and this pattern has somehow found its way to people too. my eyes drowsily trace around his fingertips and suddenly i am that same little girl sitting cross-legged on the classroom floor wondering.

will things always be most beautiful night before they destroy you?

WHEN

When every dream

   has turned to dust,

   and your highest hopes

   no longer soar.

When places you

    once yearned to see,

    grow further away

    on distant shores.

When every night

     you close your eyes,

     and long inside

     for something more.

Remember this

     and only this,

     if nothing else

     you can recall

There was a life

     a girl once led,

     where you were loved 

     the most of all.