How far you have come

Instead of focusing on how far you still have to go, take
some time today to remind yourself of how far you’ve
already come. Yes, you might still be struggling. And yes, you
may still have some distance to cover, but those things don’t
discount the progress you’ve already made. Healing takes
time. Life takes time. It’s not a process that can be rushed.
You’ll get there when you get there. And you’re allowed to
give yourself that time.

Beating yourself up for not being further along does
absolutely nothing to help get you closer to where you want
to be. It makes you feel inadequate and ashamed, and it
keeps you stuck. So stop fixating on how much farther you
need to go and start acknowledging how incredible it is that
you’ve gotten as far as you have. That despite how difficult
this path has been, you haven’t given up. That even though
you’ve felt hopeless and defeated, you keep showing up every
day and trying your best. Because that’s what matters.

I know it can be so painful to feel stuck. I know you’re tired.
And I know that it’s hard not to feel ashamed if it’s taking
you longer. But you have to let go of this idea that you
should be further ahead. Trust that it’s okay to be where you
are. Trust that you won’t be here forever. Trust that you will
get to where you need to be in your own time. You’re doing
the best you can each day to fight the darkness you feel and
take steps forward in your process, and that’s all you can ask
of yourself. It’s enough. No matter where you are in your
journey, you’re enough.

I Worried

I worried a lot. Will the garden grow, will the rivers

flow in the right direction, will the earth turn

as it was taught, and if not how shall

I correct it?

Was I right, was I wrong, will I be forgiven,

can I do better?

Will I ever be able to sing, even the sparrows

can do it and I am, well,

hopeless.

Is my eyesight fading or am I just imagining it,

am I going to get rheumatism,

lockjaw, dementia?

Finally I saw that worrying had come to nothing.

And gave it up. And took my old body

and went out into the morning,

and sang.