So figure out what you most need to heal within your-
self by seeing what you most want to change in others.
Doing so will free you in a way you can’t imagine. Doing
so is necessary piece of the life-you-want puzzle,
because all the energy you’re using trying to avoid,
deflect, delude your way into not acknowledging what
you need to heal/change/deal is being wasted, at best,
and is actually actively keeping you from the life you
want, at worst.
What is worth suffering for?
Everything is hard in some way. It’s hard to be in the
wrong relationship. It’s hard to be in the right one.
It’s hard to be broke and miserable, it’s hard to achieve
your dreams. It’s hard to be stuck in the middle, not really
feeling anything at all. Everything is hard, but you
choose your hard. You choose what’s worth it. You don’t
choose whether or not you’ll suffer, but you do choose
what you want to suffer for.
What owns you in this life?
Is it your desire for happiness? The past? The relationship
that almost-was-but-ultimately-didn’t? Your body hang-up?
Your fear? Your loneliness? Your lack of self-worth?
Everybody has one thing that ultimately owns them, drives them,
controls them at some visceral level. It’s the pattern that
everything else is rooted in; it’s the issue that crops
up again and again. It’s what you insatiably seek, then run
await from, only to find you ran right into it. What
owns you in this life makes up the majority of what you do,
so you need to know what it is.
Autumn 